Today is my youngest daughter’s 9th birthday.  I am trying to muster up enough strength to help her enjoy it when she gets home from school.  I cooked one of her favorite dinners and it is all ready for her.  It is truly hard to see the look in your children’s eyes when you are trying to hide the pain but they know that it is there.  I was able to do more with my older children like scouting and various other after school activities.  My youngest is at that age where she wants to learn gymnastics and join the girl scouts.  With my older children I was their scout leaders and very active in both the Boy and Girl Scouts of America.  I miss camping outdoors and all of that good stuff.  I hope that God will allow me to provide my daughter with those activities.  Living on one income instead of two makes is more difficult too.